TODAY

I just read this on someone's Facebook status: "Once you decide not to be miserable, great things happen". That really resonated with me and inspired me to write after way too long staying away from the blog! The last few months have brought about some serious thinking for me concerning what I really want out of life. Not just for me, but for my family. I am already finding myself saying "Oh, I'll do that later". Or, "Maybe one day". Along with that, I am realizing that TODAY is the day and LATER should be NOW. Maybe it's the pregnancy hormones talking, but I sure appreciate them. They (or whatever it is) are helping me see things in perspective and try to honor what is truly important in life. After all, you only get one (life, that is)! My husband and I, lead by my begging and pleading, are considering some serious life changes coming very soon. All my life, all I have wanted is to be a mother. To be a wife. To be the one who cares for my children the way I want to, not the way I have to. Too often we find ourselves restricted by time and energy. That's where the "maybe one day"'s and "I'll do it later"'s come in. Too many days I find the way I am spending them (my days, that is) to simply be a means to an end. "Just get through the day and then you can be home with your family" I tell myself. I have realized that my children are only going to be young once and you can't go back. You can't save childhood for later. Now is the time. So, we are embarking on a new, exciting adventure. It's just a temporary adventure, but so is childhood, right? This new job, like any job, will have many ups and downs. Many struggles, compromises, and maybe even some "lets just get through the day" 's. But, at least I will lay my head down at night knowing that I have done the best I can at the best job anyone could have; being a mother.