You might get out...

I sit here in a bit of a mood. Not a bad one, but not a good one. Kind of a sad one. Some unfortunate circumstances have bestowed themselved upon our household lately. The kind that leave you jealous, angry, confused, incredibly sad. But there has been so much good. And that is what I am going to focus on. My title, "You might get out..." was inspired by the song (country, mind you) that goes "If you're goin' through hell, keep on goin', face that fire, walk right through it, you might get out before the devil even knows you're there..."

School starts in two weeks. I have been home with my kid all summer, and I have loved it. I did write a post awhile back that stated that I could never be a stay at home mother. I think I was in a bad mood that day. I love it. I hate stress. I hate deadlines. I hate being told what to do.

I want to be the "queen mum" of my household. I'm not the least bit British. I don't know why I titled my blog that. I guess I wanted something catchy to go along with The King's???
I love waking up, getting my son out of bed, fixing him breakfast and eating mine with him. I love drinking my coffee while he tells his morning news in toddler jibberish. I love not having to rush around, getting myself ready, getting him ready, and out the door in time to get him to school and me as well. I am okay with either having a plan for the day, or not having one at all. I love being able to keep my house clean, laundry done, and have dinner ready each night. I love being a fun mom and getting to plan activities to do with my son that mean something and make him smile.

I try to do all these things when I am working. I do. But sometimes they just don't get done. But I really LIKE getting all of these things done. It is good for my inner self. I feel accomplished. But dangit, they just don't.

School is starting in two weeks. (Did I mention that already?). Part of me is ready to get back into the groove. And part of me is resisting it with all my might. Normally, by now I have been up to my classroom at least a few times. I haven't been there yet. I am going tomorrow though. Wish me luck at being productive. ;)

While going back to work might be like "going through hell" at first, I am going to keep on going. I am blessed to even have a job with all of the budget cuts that have bestowed themselves upon Missouri. Our son has a great school to go to and many friends to play with. My husband coaches a great football team alongside a phenomenal head coach. I work with a fabulous bunch of ladies that I can actually call my friends, and get to hang out with twenty-something 8 year-olds all day. Not quite the "stay-at-home mom" gig I was going for, but it will do for now.